The siren's call, or why it seems certain people work a lot!

 Look, we're volunteers for a hobby we love. We do what we like, and sometimes some things we don't like. I mean, who REALLY likes to clean the bathrooms? 

Anyway, Someone mentioned something to me,' Why does it seems some people are always doing the work? ' even possibly to excessive amounts. It is a phenomenon I call 'The Siren's Call'. 

This call is the friend that you see dozens of posts from looking to fill slots in a schedule, It is your friend who is the event organizer who needs extra hands for something, it is your friend that needs help, and not answering the call feels like you are betraying that friendship. It isn't, our friends definitely understand that we can't do everything all the time. Somehow though, knowing this doesn't help.

10 years on

Fair warning: This is not an SCA post

10 years ago I was in a hospital. My back had gone 'wonky'. The MRI turned out to be clear and all they could tell me was it was a muscular issue, and not one like they had seen. My back eventually 'fixed' itself. I asked questions: 'What was wrong?' 'What caused this?' and 'Will this ever happen again?'. To each question the answer was the same. 'I don't know'. I have gone 10 years without a problem so bad that I was hospitalized again (though the pain at Crown came close). There is no answer, no warning, no trigger, Instead I just live my life.

I don't NOT do things because something MAY happen. I can not live with 'What if '. Recently my back has given me issues. Crown certainly was hard but there were so many things going on. It could have been 'my issue' or it could have been a combo of : not my bed, my period after 10+ weeks, stress, working, and random stuff. I will never know. 

I don't often talk about my health. Mental OR physical. What's the point? No one can help. My body just is the way it is. 

Growing up when and where I did I learned to 'just do it', ignore pain and discomfort there is shit to be done. If I stopped every time I had an ache I'd never get things done (chronic pain isn't just sometimes, it is always, just sometimes it is less). 

I have 2 choices: Live or don't. Let the pain rule my life and keep me from pursuing the things I love or live, do it anyway. Yes, Yes, balance and all that. When the pain is too much I do let it stop me, but at that point, the mental health issues start. The lazy, crazy, just suck it up weasels invade. I am not sure what is worse, the weasels or the pain and when I am stuck with both, well ya, that sucks most.