Wednesday, August 2, 2023

Sitting on my hands

 I am passionate about my hobby, not just cooking. I love to see and be at events no matter what side of the crew I am on. Running it, participation or a combo of both. 

I suppose the reason I am putting all this here is to remind myself of what I was/ am feeling and why. A record for me to look at to help me analyze how to improve my relationship with my hobby.

I volunteered to run Spring crown this past year out of that passion, the drive to see things get done. No, not a 'I must do it or it won't get done' but a 'someone has to do it, I can do it, me doing it will relieve the pressure off of others that have been doing it a long time and those that may not be ready to take on such a big project.' 

12th night coronation needs to be done. I have only a pair of things on my plate, I could do it, but I won't. I am still trying to figure out some things from post SCT (Spring Crown Tournament). I do not have the confidence I had going into that event and that will take time to rebuild. I have been frustrated lately with many aspects of the organizational side of my hobby and it has 'crisped my edges' I guess. 

So, as to keep from getting further burned out, I need to let go, I need to accept that I can not fix everything, that path only leads to ruin. I do hope that someone out there steps up, someone in a better place to be able to manage the event. Someone with a thicker skin than I have/had. And I hope that person does it from a genuine desire to run the event and not an 'I'll do it cause no one else will.'

Sunday, June 11, 2023

The siren's call, or why it seems certain people work a lot!

 Look, we're volunteers for a hobby we love. We do what we like, and sometimes some things we don't like. I mean, who REALLY likes to clean the bathrooms? 

Anyway, Someone mentioned something to me,' Why does it seems some people are always doing the work? ' even possibly to excessive amounts. It is a phenomenon I call 'The Siren's Call'. 

This call is the friend that you see dozens of posts from looking to fill slots in a schedule, It is your friend who is the event organizer who needs extra hands for something, it is your friend that needs help, and not answering the call feels like you are betraying that friendship. It isn't, our friends definitely understand that we can't do everything all the time. Somehow though, knowing this doesn't help.

Monday, June 5, 2023

10 years on

Fair warning: This is not an SCA post

10 years ago I was in a hospital. My back had gone 'wonky'. The MRI turned out to be clear and all they could tell me was it was a muscular issue, and not one like they had seen. My back eventually 'fixed' itself. I asked questions: 'What was wrong?' 'What caused this?' and 'Will this ever happen again?'. To each question the answer was the same. 'I don't know'. I have gone 10 years without a problem so bad that I was hospitalized again (though the pain at Crown came close). There is no answer, no warning, no trigger, Instead I just live my life.

I don't NOT do things because something MAY happen. I can not live with 'What if '. Recently my back has given me issues. Crown certainly was hard but there were so many things going on. It could have been 'my issue' or it could have been a combo of : not my bed, my period after 10+ weeks, stress, working, and random stuff. I will never know. 

I don't often talk about my health. Mental OR physical. What's the point? No one can help. My body just is the way it is. 

Growing up when and where I did I learned to 'just do it', ignore pain and discomfort there is shit to be done. If I stopped every time I had an ache I'd never get things done (chronic pain isn't just sometimes, it is always, just sometimes it is less). 

I have 2 choices: Live or don't. Let the pain rule my life and keep me from pursuing the things I love or live, do it anyway. Yes, Yes, balance and all that. When the pain is too much I do let it stop me, but at that point, the mental health issues start. The lazy, crazy, just suck it up weasels invade. I am not sure what is worse, the weasels or the pain and when I am stuck with both, well ya, that sucks most.

Tuesday, May 30, 2023

ICOE (In Case of Elevation / Peerage): A document I think everyone should have!!

 

So, the first thing to address is 'Why do I need one, I'm not even close?' 

The answers are:

    You may be closer than you think.

    This is a living document and can be a reminder of how relationships grow and change and how your views on the society grow and change.

This document is not just for dependents!!! (Squires, Proteges, Apprentices, Cadets, or other) This document is for everyone!

I don't have a peer, who do I give mine to? 

    Great question! Give it to your partner, your closest friend, A friend that is a peer, or give them to me. I will hold anyone's document for them. 


What if the peer I give it to isn't the one on the path I am following?

    Trust me, Peers talk to each other across the disciplines. If someone is looking for your info, they will find it.

'Isn't it unseemly to desire peerage?'

    Let me be blunt NO! Having a desire, a drive, or a goal to become a peer is not unseemly. Being your sole motivation is. A squire by accepting a red belt is making a statement 'I want to be a knight'. It is not wrong for the other dependents to have the same attitude about their belts (pins, garters, aprons, or other signs of a relationship, or no sign at all).

To sum up for now, this is intended as a guide. A place to put your wants AND your Do Not wants as well. I m happy to chat about this if you catch me at an event while I am free, or you reach out via Face Book messenger or via email at baroness.maggie@gmail.com. Lets talk!

Below is the link to my template on my Google drive. Like the document you create it is a living document, Changes will be made at times as I think of more things or new ideas are brought to me.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Q4gkMNqEy8mRtX_ss0RYiqLDz772BVqY2N3Y4naDKts/edit?usp=sharing

Saturday, January 14, 2023

What the year will bring

 I have a chunk of the year mapped out and a strict 

NO NEW PROJECTS ON THE LIST UNTIL AFTER 30 YEAR

Schedule as it is:

February: Scriptorium (cooking)

March: Arts in April (attending)

            Spring Crown Tournament (autocrat)

April: Flaming Arrow (small chance to attend but on my list anyway)

May: Doublewars (Still lots of logistics to work out)

June: Strawberry Raid (attending and camp cooking, really want to get there)

          30th Year Celebration and Coronation ( attending and some stuff to organize)


Now, where I am at with all of these things. 

Food for scriptorium is planned, nothing left there

Crown.... This one is complicated. We are still missing event staff, will try to scare up what we need but the monkey in the program, I need a feast cook!!!! I had one but due to circumstances beyond his control can not attend. So, plan B..... nope plan B did not pan out, On to plan C!!!! This is in process and fingers crossed!

Flaming arrow would be a birthday trip for me. I'd love to go. It has been forever since I did any archery

Doublewars: Time to look at logistics and money, ugh!!

Strawberry Raid: Halfway there.... but again, logistics and money

30 year: I need to ask some questions, pay some money, figure it all out


so ya, There we have it...


Oh, 2 more things... Online university (end of this month) and in person university (cooking in November)



Sunday, January 1, 2023

Welcome to 2023

 I really should write more often. I just don't often think about it, maybe that will be my push in the new year, at least once a month should be doable, right?

Anyway 2022 is wrapped up. I always think 'I haven't really done much' but if I look at the list, I kinda have. So my list is as follows:

January: Taught 2 classes at online university
April: Cooked for Arts in April, Attended an event with no responsibilities 
May: Cooked at Double Wars (breakfast/brunch shift), was a consort for crown, helped with an elevation, embroidered 3 leaves for her laurel wreath, constructed a simple construction tunic (all but the hem), started a new gown, hand sewed a small red cap
June: Cooked at Coronation, trimmed the little red cap
July: attended an event with no responsibilities
October: Attended Crown as a consort, finished the gown I started, embroidered a pair of garters and a patch for an elevation cloak

I have also been hosting on line sewing circles, not quite every week but most weeks. I have been doing research in the field of cooking as well for upcoming events. I started the planning for Spring Crown (i'm autocratting), helping with 2023 on line uni, and planning the cooking for several more events that will take place in the coming year.

Speaking of the coming year, my plans are:

January: On line uni
Feb: Cooking at Scriptorium and Carnivale
March: Spring Crown, as autocrat and consort
April: AiA as an attendee
June: 30th year
July: Red and Gold
November: Cooking for in person Kingdom University

I am sure more will fill in the schedule but these are the firm things in the calendar.


Happy New Year all, May it be bright, blessed, and full of Joy!

Tuesday, November 29, 2022

How we got here

 Feel free to pass this post by, It is just a meandering thought I wanted to get out.


In my Facebook memories was a memory from 12 years ago. 'Super Barony' , it was a silly name for something that I was passionate about and had been for several years. When I moved to the lands called Rauchenderberg, at this point 20+ years ago, there were 2 Baronies in Germany. Knights Crossing, the most ancient of lands in the kingdom and Drei Eichen, a totally German barony that had a few expats but had been grown and maintained by the German population there. 

As soon as I hit these shores there was already murmuring of a Danube barony. One that would unite Southern Germany and Austria. A cool idea from my perspective. Of course this idea had pitfalls one of them being it crossed an international border and the SCA inc frowned on that, but still a group of us held out that someday, we could have another Barony in Germany. Sadly, this was not meant to be, but what happened instead is just as much of a good thing and in hindsight, an even better thing.

You see, as time went on the SCA population dwindled, especially in Southern Germany where a large portion of the players had been US military members and their dependent's who are only here for 3-5 years at best. Slowly groups dwindled and then blew away like dust. This was not a unique thing though to the South, Dre Eichen a formidable barony dwindled in numbers as well reducing them from a Barony to a shire, and at one point practically non existent. At this same time the numbers in Knights Crossing were dwindling as well. Our southern most Shire, Isengau also fell prey to the changing times. People moved, had kids, just stopped, and many other cases of 'life' happened that kept people from the SCA. 

I am not quite sure how the conversation started, but I know several of the players involved. Ele, Haldan, Gottfried and myself got the ball rolling. Others were of great support as well, Bridget, Marcus, Judith and Gerhardt were a few. No matter, the idea had been struck, maybe we should become a canton of KC (Knights Crossing) and if we did, maybe others would too. There was talk of what the pro's and con's could be. There was lots of talk! We held a meeting in my dining room (I've got the salt!!) and talked among the members of Turmstadt. We hashed out many things but came to the conclusion, we are better and stronger together. I then spent weeks talking to members of other shire's, I think we all did. Planting seeds, growing the idea of an all Germany barony. Baby steps.

We decided to go forward and there was a polling held for who the new Head(s) of the Barony would be. As it stood 4 couples put in letters of intent and of those four it was me and my husband(at the time) that were chosen. It was announced at the Spring Crown Tournament and in April that year and would be July before the investiture happened. In that time we prepared and talked some more and on the day we took the Baronial seats, we accepted 7 cantons to the Barony. It was new territory for all of us. I had never been a Baroness and they had never been cantons. We did all we could to make the transition smooth, to keep the promise that you didn't have to surrender your local identity to be part of something larger, and I like to think we succeeded. 

Those first two years were rough and had frustrations but there was also oh so much joy. Ten years on and I have watched with joy and pride to see us grow. Meadowmarsh joining under our successors and after them Isengau (unfortunately, their lands became ours by default as there were no active members there), bringing the baronial lands to include all of Germany.